SHE.HER.

YEAH~~~i finally finally FINALLY finished my Diploma!!!!

my first paper was really tough. i almost memorized every single stupid questions on the two mock papers my lecturer had given and it only ended up with 2.5 questions in my real paper. why 2.5? haha..because one question is a tricky one, my lecturer shortened the question and it seemed to be true, yet it seemed to be a false statement too. damn, i chosen false for that. anyways, it doesnt matter much now as i did not put any hope in my 20% paper after knowing all the questions because i knew then i was totally screwed up. yea~that is the last thing i wanted to analyse. ):

my second paper was slightly better. compared to the first, it's a breeze i should say. because i had gotten help. haha..yeah, help from my bestest best-and-only friend in school - Terri. she had taken her paper in the afternoon that wednesday, and called me after that. well, i pinned all my hopes on her. and yeah, all that she had told me came out in the paper :D however, it was not the usual T&F, MCQ and short-answer questions. it was MCQ, fill-in-the-blanks and short-answer questions. totally freaked out at the fill-in-the-blanks section. i definitely did not expect it to be there in the paper! but well, so what? i am done with that already. just dont let me get a referral for either one as i certainly wont be in the mood to re-do my assignments and re-take my papers (i got valid reasons for that :p).

my reasons being HE SAID WE CAN GO BINTAN OR TIOMAN THIS COMING SEPTEMBER!!! whoa~that's the best after finally finished studies. we plan to visit the natas fair (coming 1st-3rd August) and get a cheap deal out from there, like how we went Genting Highlands paying just S$176 nett for hotel+transport. it was fun travelling with him. was enjoying and savouring every moment i spent with him. but my real intention to either Bintan or Tioman is: snorkeling. actually i wanted to dive, but i've done some reseach on the net and i found out that getting a certificate for that is expensive. plus we need to stay about 5 days in order to get it and i did not want to spend such a long period there (everyday costs scare the hell out of me :p). what i'm saving now is actually planned for the Hong Kong trip next year. but well, a quick get-away will be relaxing and REWARDING for a girl who has finally conquered her Diploma, while working the shit out of her (: haha..life is getting slightly better.

he went for a review in SGH that Tuesday morning. the cancer cells are dispersing, and probably two more chemotherapy will be enough to temporary kill them all. how well can it get? *beaming* it is a REALLY great news. i was so happy for him. this stupid therapy was making my baby suffer and i dont like it. but if it can prolong his life, then i would rather he takes in all the suffering and be there for me whenever i needed him in future (: i just hope his therapies will not crash with out Bintan/Tioman trip, as i seriously am looking forward to it! presevere my dear ^^

OMG 11.32pm already. i needed my beauty sleep now. right at this moment i can enjoy sleep peacefully and am actually enjoying it. dear dear called le..see? he's grumbling at me now, asking me to sleep early (yes dear i know le!). nights~

I gone mad again. Seriously speaking, i really don't feel well. Inside and out. Whatever~

Sat night (21/06), i ate TWO BIG cups of ice-cream. The following morning (yesterday), i was in GREAT pain. Why? Hur~ girls' every month problem, that's why. I feel damn sick and my leg was in pain too. Couldn't walk normally. and so i spent my whole sunday lying in bed sleeping, trying to forget about the pain my stomach and legs caused me.

OH~one happy news: i finally finished my papers! (: wanted to blog it at the moment i finished, however, i didnt manage to do so. hmm..lazy is my excuse. i simply was lazy so i didnt. but was happy though. totally estastic. haha~~ now i'm left with my written exams only. which i did not put much hope or effort in. ~_~ T & F, MCQ, Short answered questions....can anyone help?~ *sheepish smile*

was angry with him yesterday. because he favourited another girl's blog on my lappie. said he do so means he didnt hide anything from me. what the...?! i nearly flushed my new phone down the toilet bowl! i know. we do not trust each other and this isnt good. really. but..but what? i also dont know. haa~funny i say dont know. because i do. and the answer isnt satisfying for me. i...i just wanted peace. okay, put it this way: i'm selfish. i want things to go MY way. and this wasnt the case. because every individuals are different. we all have different thinkings and behaviours. and to think that i study psychology. but hell no, i'm just at the beginners stage, going on to advance. so i dont think i can fully understand and able to read people's mind. so where's the intermediate? because it seemed so FAR. i needed it to work in hospitals ^^

so far so good. he smsed me really late last night (2.23am!! i was in lala-land already~) to say sorry and stuff. i was touched, no doubt. but i was too tired to even drop a tear of happiness. and this morning all this feeling was gone. i was back to the grumpy old self. dont feel like sms-ing him to tell him that i'm off to work (like i used to), as he usually doesnt. "I love you more than you know how much i do." this is the sentence i love most among the whole message. but i seriously dont know how much. haha~that's a stupid question. how do we measure love. no way man. haha..well, i shall moved on from here. guess i need a chocolate break. perhaps once i've absorbed the endorphins i'll feel better. oh god..i'm consoling myself. shall stop all these blabbering. i can confirm i sounded like your granny. even worse i think. :p

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